From March 2023
March 13, 2023
I don’t know why. Why? Does _ stay in my mind. What is it about them that keeps popping into my head? For all I know, they probably don’t even want me. I know I’m not a priority for them. I never have been. But there’s just something about _ that I can’t get out of my head. For starters, they’re my favorite lover. My best sex lover is a tie between two others, but they’ve been away from my life for some time and there’s no need to mention who they are and their whereabouts. I’ve been craving _. I didn’t even want to meet them the first time we met, but for some reason, there was a secret connection. There’s just some kind of passion between us. I’ve never even told them to this day. I’m secretly scared to tell them the truth from my end. I feel as if it’ll scare them because they might not feel the same way. I do enjoy having sex with this person. It’s just different. In all honesty, he’s not well endowed. He’s just a great lover to me. I’ve had my share of partners before and after my first time with them, but I want that feeling all the time! It’s a great feeling, rather, it’s an amazing feeling to me. I just don’t know how to address it with them without feeling desperate on my part. I want that passion back, I always need it. I’ve been craving it and not just from anyone, just them. I don’t need anyone else, just _.
In all fairness, it’s difficult to have a good lover. It usually is with the most unlikely person. Sadly, in my case, it’s with someone who doesn’t even want to be with me. Well, no one really wants to be with me. This particular person, hasn’t learned from life that we should be together. From the outset, we’re very different people, just opposites. We don’t even have likened secular interests. We were just two horny people who got together on a whim and didn’t expect it to be any good. I’ve never got around to ask them if they ever had the same experience, to which I’m sure, they never have since we’ve been together overall. In life, you only get one amazing sexual partner that honestly takes care of those burning desires. If that person doesn’t reciprocate your desires and needs, it’s obviously a forgotten ordeal that can never be repeated. Once the passion is gone, the orgasms disappear too, they die out. I don’t want to lose that sensation with someone. I want it all the time, more like, I need…