“When I Was…”

Anni Yang
3 min readSep 3, 2019

“When I Was…”

When I was younger, I always felt that I had to agree with people even though in my heart I completely disagreed with them.

When I was younger, I was naïve about friendships and romantic relationships.

When I was younger, no one really cared about me.

When I was younger, I knew what I wanted and needed but had zero encouragement.

When I was younger, I was ALWAYS insulted as being ugly because I was fat in physical size.

When I was younger, I couldn’t hold a job.

When I was younger, I was constantly verbally and emotionally abused by immediate family and people claiming to be a friend.

When I was younger, I lost MORE in life and never recovered from any of it.

When I was younger, I felt like a failure because the people I was around were that way and sought to it to make me miserable.

When I was younger, I was never advised to never hook-up with someone so easily and that later in life, I was taught to make them earn it. If they didn’t do anything for me, I must leave them hanging since they refuse to consider my needs over their wants!

When I was suffering the most, none of my siblings cared about me.

When I was practically homeless, my family didn’t reach out to help me.

When I was feeling like I lost all hope, those who were once close to me, abandoned me after I’ve been there for them for their sad times.

It took me until recently to know when to shut my mouth and when to speak up where I must.

I know now to never cave into a potential friendship or romantic relationship with anyone, especially when they refuse to compromise to my needs since their life is rather dull.

I know now to no longer do anything for others who won’t do anything for me.

If anyone doesn’t do something for me, they’re NEVER worth my time as a friend or even a lover.

I still think that I am physically obese, but that doesn’t make me ugly!

I know that in the real world, intelligence and being domesticated doesn’t matter when it comes to settling down anymore since people are extremely vain and ONLY care about appearances.

Anni Yang

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